animated james @[email protected]
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In therapy and on meds! Started therapy on the 11th and started medication today. Feels good to be getting the help I need. Thank you to everyone who's been encouraging and supporting my personal growth. Here are my plans for the future.
As I mentioned in DaftPina's video, I currently do NSFW commissions on an alt account. It pays the bills, but the work I do on that account is more for financial stability than creative fulfillment, and I plan on pursuing more creatively fulfilling work in the near future. It'll be on a new account separate from both this one and the one I use for commissions. On said account, I won't be hiding my identity. I don't have much reason or motivation to hide anymore, and I'd like to at least see what happens if I just started openly doing my own thing.
As I've said before, I'm not seeking forgiveness or acceptance. I'm only seeking an outlet to express myself as a better version of myself. Maybe that's not what I should be doing, maybe coming back and starting over is a bad idea. I don't know, but I look forward to finding out. When I start my new account, I won't be sharing it here. It wouldn't feel right to piggyback off of the audience I used to have, with the content I used to make, as the insecure scumbag I used to be. I'd like to start over as much as possible with content I actually enjoy making.
There's not much else I need or want to say about my past that hasn't already been said in the links located in this twitter's bio. After facing consequences for my actions, it's been healthier to just learn and let go of my past, rather than dwell and identify with it. I've been given a lot of labels and heard a lot of opinions about who I was, am, and will be. If it gets to a serious point of unjustly affecting my life, I'll defend myself accordingly. Otherwise, as I've said before, I deserve both everything I got, and whatever I get.
I won't pretend to be less sensitive or more thick-skinned than I actually am, like I tried to in the past, but after all that I've experienced, I can't really afford to concern myself with what others think, nor can I afford to listen to that which doesn't help and only hurts. If you liked my past content, it'll still be there. It's content that I hate with a passion and probably always will, but I'm glad it made people happy. However, what'll make me happy is leaving my past content behind, along with the rest of my past, and starting something new.
Offline, I've been picking up the pieces of my life and building a more enjoyable life out of them. Online, I like to think I can do the same. If posting content isn't enjoyable for me anymore, I'll stop (again), but I won't know if it's no longer enjoyable until I start (again).
I think 4 years is a fair amount of time to say something regarding who I was from the perspective of who I am now. (cont) www.twitlonger.com/show/n_1ss38av
This channel is abandoned. Everything you need to know is in the links located in the bio of this twitter: twitter.com/animatedjames